1.
When two people are meant to be together, they will be together. It's fate.
Sara Gruen
2.
When you are five, you know your age down to the month. Even in your twenties, you know how old you are. I'm twenty-three you say, or maybe twenty-seven. But then in your thirties, something strange starts to happen. It is a mere hiccup at first, an instant of hesitation. How old are you? Oh, I'm--you start confidently, but then you stop. You were going to say thirty-three, but you are not. You're thirty-five. And then you're bothered, because you wonder if this is the beginning of the end. It is, of course, but it's decades before you admit it.
Sara Gruen
3.
Keeping up the appearance of having all your marbles is hard work, but important.
Sara Gruen
4.
I stare at her for a long moment. I want to kiss her. I want to kiss her more than I've ever wanted anything in my life.
Sara Gruen
5.
I look after those who look after me." He smacks his lips, stares at me, and adds, "I also look after those who don't." - Sara Gruen (Water for Elephants)
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6.
Life is the most spectacular show on earth.
Sara Gruen
7.
The only thing that makes me crazier than writing is not writing.
Sara Gruen
8.
When will people learn that just because you can make something doesn’t mean you should?
Sara Gruen
9.
When I first submerged my feet into frigid water, they hurt so badly I yanked them out again. I persisted, dunking them for longer and longer periods, until the cold finally blistered.
Sara Gruen
10.
I don't like outlining, because books are organic things. Sometimes a book doesn't want to be written in a certain way.
Sara Gruen
11.
...poking a lump of red Jello that jiggles outrageously, like a breast I once knew.
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12.
I stroke her lightly, memorizing her body. I want her to melt into me, like butter on toast. I want to absorb her and walk around for the rest of my days with her encased in my skin. I lie motionless, savoring the feeling of her body against mine. I'm afraid to breathe in case I break the spell.
Sara Gruen
13.
Don't want to get tipsy and break a hip.
Sara Gruen
14.
Do you have any idea how much an elephant drinks?
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15.
It's as though I've been sleepwalking and suddenly woken to find myself here
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16.
He stares at me, and then leans back in his chair. "He's ill, Jacob." I say nothing. "He's a paragon schnitzophonic." "He's what?!" "Paragon schnitzophonic," repeats Uncle Al. "You mean paranoid schizophrenic?" "Sure. Whatever. But the bottom line is he's mad as a hatter.
Sara Gruen
17.
It's just a crazy damned life, that's all.
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18.
Why the hell shouldn't I run away with the circus?
Sara Gruen
19.
I scan the room. Catherine is writing quickly, her light brown hair falling over her face. She is left-handed, and because she writes in pencil her left arm is silver from wrist to elbow.
Sara Gruen
20.
How is it that everyone on this train has so much alcohol?" "We always head to Canada at the beginning of the season," she says taking her seat again. "Their laws are much more civilized. Cheers.
Sara Gruen
21.
Age is a terrible thief. Just when you're getting the hang of life, it knocks your legs out from under you and stoops your back. It makes you ache and muddies your head and silently spreads cancer throughout your spouse.
Sara Gruen
22.
I want her to melt into me, like butter on toast. I want to absorb her and walk around for the rest of my days with her encased in my skin. I want.
Sara Gruen
23.
The more distressing the memory, the more persistent it's presence.
Sara Gruen
24.
I have to convince myself that this is not a pointless life, even the body is telling me so.
Sara Gruen
25.
You do right by me, I'll show you a life most suckers can't even dream of.
Sara Gruen
26.
Honey, I plan to marry you the moment the ink is dry on that death certificate.
Sara Gruen
27.
I cling to my anger with every ounce of humanity left in my ruined body, but it's no use. It slips away, like a wave from shore. I am pondering this sad fact when I realize the blackness of sleep is circling my head. It's been there awhile, biding it's time and growing closer with each revolution. I give up on rage, which at this point has become a formality, and make a mental note to get angry again in the morning. Then I let myself drift, because there's really no fighting it.
Sara Gruen
28.
Sometimes I think that if I had to choose between an ear of corn or making love to a woman, I'd choose the corn. Not that I wouldn't love to have a final roll in the hay - I am a man yet, and something never die - but the thought of those sweet kernels bursting between my teeth sure sets my mouth to watering. It's fantasy, I know that. Neither will happen. I just like to weight the options, as though I were standing in front of Solomon: a final roll in the hay or an ear of corn. What a wonderful dilemma. Sometimes I substitute an apple for the corn.
Sara Gruen
29.
Sometimes when you get older — and I’m not talking about you, I’m talking generally, because everyone ages differently — things you think on and wish on start to seem real. And then you believe them, and before you know it they’re part of your history, and if someone challenges you on them and says they’re not true — why, then you get offended because you can’t remember the first part. All you know is that you’ve been called a liar.
Sara Gruen
30.
Life goes on with fragile normalcy.
Sara Gruen
31.
With a secret like that, at some point the secret itself becomes irrelevant. The fact that you kept it does not.
Sara Gruen
32.
Although there are times I'd give anything to have her back, I'm glad she went first. Losing her was like being cleft down the middle. It was the moment it all ended for me, and I wouldn't have wanted her to go through that.
Sara Gruen
33.
I am ninety. Or ninety-three. One or the other.
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34.
Dear God. Not only am I unemployed and homeless, but I also have a pregnant woman, bereaved dog, elephant, and eleven horses to take care of.
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35.
Is where you're from the place you're leaving or where you have roots?
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36.
i'm afraid to breathe in case i break the spell
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37.
The whole thing's illusion, [Jacob], and there's nothing wrong with that. It's what people want from us. It's what they expect.
Sara Gruen
38.
Sometimes I think if I had to choose between an ear of corn or making love to a woman, I'd choose the corn.
Sara Gruen
39.
Even when I look straight into the milky blue eyes I can't find myself any more. When did I stop being me?
Sara Gruen
40.
Must protect my little pockets of happiness.
Sara Gruen
41.
Being the survivor stinks.
Sara Gruen
42.
My platitudes don't hold their interest and I can hardly blame them for that. My real stories are all out of date. So what if I can speak firsthand about the Spanish flu, the advent of the automobile, world wars, cold wars, guerrilla wars, and Sputnik — that's all ancient history now. But what else do I have to offer? Nothing happens to me anymore. That's the reality of getting old, and I guess that's really the crux of the matter. I'm not ready to be old yet.
Sara Gruen
43.
We traveled for two weeks with a pickled hippo.
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44.
Hey! Shouts Camel. There ain't no woman in the world worth two bottles of whiskey!
Sara Gruen
45.
Then I lie down on the horse blanket and drift into a dream about Marlena that will probably cost me my soul.
Sara Gruen
46.
Jacob: I've never seen so much manure. Wade: Baggage stock horses. They pack'em in 27 a car. Jacob: how do you stand the smell? Wade: what smell?
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47.
I hate this bizarre policy of protective exclusion, because it effectively writes me off the page.
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48.
I was always searching, always seeking the next big thing, because that was the thing that was going to make everything all right again. And while I was working toward it, it gave me something to think about other than that thing I couldn't put my finger on. But it always came back.
Sara Gruen
49.
I had my whole life planned.. I knew exactly where it was taking me.
Sara Gruen
50.
Afterward, I curl around her. We lie in silence until darkness falls, and then, haltingly, she begins to talk...She speaks without need or even room for response, so I simply hold her and stroke her hair. She talks of the pain, grief, and horror of the past four years; of learning to cope with being the wife of a man so violent and unpredictable his touch made her skin crawl and of thinking, until quite recently, that she'd finally managed to do that. And then, finally, of how my appearance had forced her to realize she hadn't learned to cope at all.
Sara Gruen