1.
Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.
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Occasionally individuals build barriers, not to exclude others, but to witness who is passionate enough to demolish them.
2.
What was important wasn't the fireworks, it was that we were together this evening, together in this place, looking up into the sky at the same time.
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'The significance of the night was not in the spectacle, but rather in the unity of us being there, together at that moment, gazing upwards.'
3.
As I grow older, much older, I will experience many things, and I will hit rock bottom again and again. Again and again I will suffer; again and again I will get back on my feet. I will not be defeated. I won't let my spirit be destroyed.
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4.
I love feeling the rhythm of other people's lives. It's like traveling.
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5.
The sky was incredibly far away, and beautiful enough to make a person wonder why our hearts are never so free.
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6.
Truly happy memories always live on, shining. Over time, one by one, they come back to life.
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7.
Itâs a marvelous thing, the ocean. For some reason when two people sit together looking out at it, they stop caring whether they talk or stay silent. You never get tired of watching it. And no matter how rough the waves get, youâre never bothered by the noise the water makes by the commotion of the surface - it never seems too loud, or too wild.
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8.
Love is the kind of thing that's already happening by the time you notice it, that's how it works, and no matter how old you get, that doesn't change. Except that you can break it up into two entirely distinct types -- love where there's an end in sight and love where there isn't.
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9.
When was it I realized that, on this truly dark and solitary path we all walk, the only way we can light is our own? Although I was raised with love, I was always lonely. Someday, without fail, everyone will disappear, scattered into the blackness of time.
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10.
Everything that had happened was shockingly beautiful, enough to make you crazy.
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11.
No matter where you are, you're always a bit on your own, always an outsider.
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12.
But I have my life, Iâm living it. Itâs twisted, exhausting, uncertain, and full of guilt, but nonetheless, thereâs something there.
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13.
Things look different depending on your perspective. As I see it, fighting to bridge those gaps isn't what really matters. The most important thing is to know them inside and out, as differences, and to understand why certain people are the way they are.
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14.
That's the advantage of insomnia. People who go to be early always complain that the night is too short, but for those of us who stay up all night, it can feel as long as a lifetime. You get a lot done
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15.
Each one of us continues to carry the heart of each self we've ever been, at every stage along the way, and a chaos of everything good and rotten. And we have to carry this weight all alone, through each day that we live. We try to be as nice as we can to the people we love, but we alone support the weight of ourselves.
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16.
The night glittered brilliantly then.
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17.
Over and over, we begin again.
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18.
It was so gorgeous it almost felt like sadness.
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19.
Fate is a ladder on which you cannot afford to miss a single rung. To skip out on even one step would mean you'll never make it to the top.
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20.
The way we think may be completely different, but you and I are an ancient, archetypal couple, the original man and woman. We are the model for Adam and Eve. For all couples in love, there comes a moment when a man gazes at a woman with the very same kind of realization. It is an infinite helix, the dance of two souls resonating, like the twist of DNA, like the vast universe.
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21.
People aren't overcome by situations or outside forces. Defeat comes from within.
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22.
The place I like best in this world is the kitchen. No matter where it is, no matter what kind, if itâs a kitchen, if itâs a place where they make food, itâs fine with me. Ideally it should be well broken in. Lots of tea towels, dry and immaculate. Where tile catching the light (ting! Ting!)â (p. 3).
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23.
Every time I look into his eyes I just want to take the ice cream or whatever I've got in my hand and rub it into his face. That's how much I like him.
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24.
In the uncertain ebb and flow of time and emotions, much of oneâs life history is etched in the senses. And things of no particular importance, or irreplaceable things, can suddenly resurface in a cafĂŠ one winter night.
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25.
When things get really bad, you take comfort in the placeness of a place.
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26.
Time expands and contracts. When it expands, itâs like pitch: it folds people in its arms and holds them forever in its embrace. It doesnât let us go so easily. Sometimes you go back again to the place youâve just come from, stop and close your eyes, and realize that not a second has passed, and time just leaves you there, stranded, in the darkness
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27.
This is what it means to be loved... when someone wants to touch you, to be tender.
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28.
Again and again I will suffer; again and again I will get back on my feet. I will not be defeated.
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29.
Ultimately, though, it's living people that frighten me the most. It's always seemed to me that nothing could be scarier than a person, because as dreadful places can be, they're still just places; and no matter how awful ghosts might seem, they're just dead people. I always thought that the most terrifying things anyone could ever think up were the things living people came up with.
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30.
You have the nicest window, you know? None of the others can even compete. It´s not flashy like the others, or bleary â your window gives of this nice, quiet light.
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31.
Living like that utterly convinced me of the extreme limitations of language. I was just a chlld then,so I have only an intuitive understanding of the degree to which one losses control of words once they are spoken or written. It was then that I first felt a deep curiosity about language, and understood it as a tool that encompasses both a single moment and eternity
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32.
Truly great people emit a light that warms the hearts of those around them. When that light has been put out, a heavy shadow of despair descends.
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33.
Her eyes were those of someone who's just fallen in love, someone who sees nothing but her lover, someone who has no fear of anything. The eyes of someone who believes that every dream will come true, that reality will move if you just give it a push.
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34.
No one can survive childhood without being wounded. Everyone remembers at least one time when their parents rejected them, pushed them away, even though they may have still been in the womb, blind, and unable to speak. That's why, as adults, we all look for someone to become our parents again, and for someone to look after us in times of need. And we search for a person to live with who can provide the companionship we so desperately want.
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35.
Chilled-looking people walking along the riverside, the snow beginning, faintly, to pile up on the roofs of cars, the bare trees shaking their heads left and right, dry leaves tossing in the wind. The silver of the metal window sash sparkling coldly. Soon after, I heard sensei call, "Mikage! Are you awake? It's snowing, look! It's snowing!" "I'm coming!" I called out, standing up. I got dressed to begin another day. Over and over, we begin again.
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36.
There are many days when all the awful things that happen make you sick at heart, when the path before you is so steep you canât bear to look. Not even love can rescue a person from that. Still, enveloped in the twilight coming from the west, there she was, watering the plants with her slender, graceful hands, in the midst of a light so sweet it seemed to form a rainbow in the transparent water she poured.
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37.
I felt how important the simplest things were, like feeling proud, finding something funny, stretching yourself, retreating into yourself.
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38.
From the bottom of my heart, I wanted to give up; I wanted to give up on living. There was no denying that tomorrow would come, and the day after tomorrow, and so next week, too. I never thought it would be this hard, but I would go on living in the midst of a glomy depression, and that made me feel sick to the depths of my soul. In spite of the tempest raging within me, I walked the night path calmly.
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39.
This world of ours is piled high with farewells and goodbyes of so many different kinds, like the evening sky renewing itself again and again from one instant to the next-and I didnât want to forget a single one.
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40.
It was at once a miracle and the most natural thing in the world.
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41.
To the extent that I had come to understand that despair does not necessarily result in annihilation, that one can go on as usual in spite of it, I had become hardened. Was this what it means to be an adult, to live with ugly ambiguities? I didn't like it, but it made it easier to go on.
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42.
If you donât say what youâre thinking, you end up lying when you really need to speak up.
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43.
it'll be this kind of deep blueâshe said. âThe kind of color that somehow sucks your eyes and your ears and all your words âthe color of a completely closed-in night
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44.
Recognizing how totally ignorant you are is the only honest way to deal with people who've been through something traumatic.
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45.
Why is it that everything I eat when Iâm with you is so delicious?â I laughed. âCould it be that youâre satisfying hunger and lust at the same time?
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46.
I never tell my boyfriend that I'm busy when I'm not. No matter how effective they are, cheap techniques like that just don't agree with me. So it's always okay, it's always all right. In my opinion the surest way to hook a man is to be as open with him as possible.
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47.
Hitoshi: I'll never be able to be here again. As the minutes slide by, I move on. The flow of time is something I cannot stop. I haven't a choice. I go. One caravan has stopped, another starts up. There are people I've yet to meet, others I'll never see again. People who are gone before you know it, people who are just passing through. Even as we exchange hellos, they seem to grow transparent. I must keep living with the flowing river before my eyes. I earnestly pray that a trace of my girl-child self will always be with you. For waving good-bye, I thank you.
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48.
I saw the sky and sea and sand and the flickering flames of the bonfire through my tears. All at once, it rushed into my head with tremendous speed, and made me feel dizzy. It was beautiful. Everything that happened was shockingly beautiful, enough to make you crazy.
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49.
It didn't matter whether he was nearby or far away. His image would drift up into your mind just when you least expected it, shocking you, making your chest pound. Making your heart ache.
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50.
Once you've recognized your own limits, you've raised yourself to a higher level of being, since you're closer to the real you.
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